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Two Years!

The last time I wrote about my life -- REALLY chatted about what was going on with me personally -- ...
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The Summer of Life Skills

Life with teenagers is a blast. It's basically the gift that keeps on giving. This summer, Brian and I decided ...
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The Sounds of Summer

Right now, Africa by Toto is playing in my ear. Before that, it was Aja by Steely Dan. I'm sure ...
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Charlie Blue: The Painting

For years, I’ve lived by the belief that grief is like a rock in your shoe, an analogy shared with me ...
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When Your Heart’s Content

Left. Left. Left. Ugh. Left Good God this is horrible. Left. Why am I doing this? Left. I can’t believe ...
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Reassuring The Mom

I've never been a dreamer. I've never been one to look far into the future and imagine things like my ...
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Thirteen. 13. A Teen.

Thirteen. It feels as awkward rolling off my tongue as it actually is to be thirteen. It's hard to fathom, ...
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The First Thing I Ever Was…

The first thing I ever was, was a groupie. Yes, I was born with groupie blood running through my veins ...
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2016: Filling My Life With Passion

Passion: noun - a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something Passion. It's been right ...
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2015: The Gloriously Weird Year of Finding Myself, Divorcing, and Turning 40

What a weird year this has been. I mean, I knew it was weird, but then looking back through my ...
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Holly Jolly New Traditions

Life is different this Christmas. Henry and I decided it would be fun to start some holly jolly new traditions ...
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One Last Anniversary

Seventeen years ago, on September 26, 1998, standing on a St. Augustine lawn at The King and Prince Resort, two ...
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Apart. Part 2.

A few months ago, I wrote about Jason and I deciding to separate. It wasn't an easy decision or one ...
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Apart.

Apart. It's an adverb, used with verbs like drift, grow, or live. It describes how our hearts have grown over ...
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Goals. And Reaching Them.

It's not a secret, if you've been around here for a bit, that I have a love/hate relationship with running ...
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On Super Bowl Ads and Children Dying

By 7 this morning (morning after Super Bowl 49), I have already had 6 inquiries into what I thought about ...
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Wild Week in the City!

Last summer, Jason, Henry and I were discussing what we wanted to do for Thanksgiving and Christmas. We'd all been ...
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Words, Glorious Words!

I sat and sat, thinking about what my word for 2015 would be. I wrote down random words that popped ...
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Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015

Oh, 2014. You've been good and you've been bad. As far as I'm concerned, you can go ahead and get ...
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When things don’t make sense…

There are times when we realize that things just don't make sense. But once we think about it, they make perfectly perfect ...
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Just like that… You’re 10.

It seems like just yesterday, you were placed in my arms, held up by your dad because to be honest, ...
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Randomness

Oh, old school blogging, how I've missed you! Remember the days of lists and tagging your friends to answer questions ...
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The Photographs

We had been talking about getting a fancy digital camera. In 2003, there weren't a million choices like there are ...
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Running Contentment

This week I wrote down the word "Contentment." Contentment is always a goal of mine. Sometimes I feel content with ...
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I Wouldn’t Change A Thing

Today, Jason and I mark our 16th wedding anniversary. I know what you're thinking… "She must've been 10 when she ...
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Tales of a Fourth Grade Tween

I look at him, stomping around the house, being angry about whatever there is to be angry about today. Three ...
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Her Last First Day of Football Season

Football season is here. The countdown has been on since January 6 when Auburn and Florida State faced off in ...
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This Week In Numbers: The Medical Mystery Tour

5 - number of days this week Henry or I have seen a doctor 6 - number of waiting rooms ...
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A Collector of People

"She was a collector of people." This phrase has come up more than once in the last few weeks, strangely ...
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In Honor Of My 700th Post…

To celebrate 700 posts (YES! This one is numero 700!), I decided to install a scratch & sniff plugin* to ...
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Mainside.

This year, Henry's week at camp is a big one. It's his first year on the Mainside. At Camp Winnataska, ...
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Just Write: The Wave

This past weekend, I realized there's a little thing I truly miss about living in a small town. I miss ...
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With Privilege Comes Responsibility

All my life I heard that phrase: With privilege comes responsibility. I learned early to roll my eyes, mostly because ...
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Dreams of a Tiny Casket

Originally published at Still Standing Magazine, July 5, 2013 Yes, you read the title right. When I was pregnant with ...
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Just Write: The Dust Settles

It's been a whirlwind. All at once, all the things had to be done. Last day of work. First day ...
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Eleven. 11. XI. Part 2.

I have seen death. I have held it in my arms. I have seen the beauty that comes after the ...
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Change.

A few weeks ago, my energy got gunky. I'm not sure how or why or what it was about. But ...
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What Happens Next?

On May 23, Lucy posted a comment on Charlie’s Story. It moved me and prompted me to respond however I ...
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A Look Inside The Private Folder Of Grief

Tonight, on Lifetime, a movie called Return To Zero will premiere. The movie was a labor of love for writer/director/producer ...
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LTYM 2014: A Mother’s Heart

On April 26, 2014, at the very first Listen To Your Mother: Atlanta, I read these words. I should tell ...
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Drowning

Have you ever felt like you were drowning? It’s my worst fear. I would rather die in fire or from ...
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The Coat Closet

After my Grannie died in September, the big challenge was obviously going through the house where she and my Grandaddy ...
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Enough is Enough

Seriously. I'm tired of it. Enough is enough. Babies have to stop dying. Parents need to stop having to choose ...
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The Ace Bandage Incident

I got a call from school the other day. Monday, in fact, after I’d been gone all the previous week ...
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The Dumbest, Most Amazing Thing I’ve Ever Done #GlassSlipperChallenge

There. I said it. Running the Glass Slipper Challenge was the dumbest thing I've ever done. Yet it was also ...
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On Goal-Setting and A New Sense of Purpose

Last week, I was chatting with a friend. Our quick chats are usually pretty random, but that's what makes them ...
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Letting My Competitive Side Show

I don't feel like I'm very competitive. I mean, I'm sure I am in many ways, but I don't think ...
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When The Glass Is Half Empty

Being an optimist stinks sometimes. No, really, it does. You see? When you're happy and positive and the one people ...
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Two Firsts: A DNF and Cop Car Selfies

I sat in the Blue Bird bus, made in my hometown, with my legs hitting the seat in front of ...
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Just Write: Performance Enhancing Drugs

It's not a secret that I run. It's not a secret that I have osteoarthritis that does, in fact, give ...
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Just Write: The Doctor’s Office

Yesterday, I was sitting in the pediatrician's office, waiting for a consultation with Henry's doctor. He wasn't with me. So ...
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The Anatomy of A Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Run

pushes Garmin button. 3-2-1-run. Ugh. This is no good. Get yourself in the right headspace, Jana. That's better. This will ...
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{Part 2}: The Door To Christmas: Story of The Christmas Room

For Part 1 of The Christmas Room story, start here. ******************************* Once everything was checked out, we were given the ...
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{Part 1} The Door To Christmas: The Story of The Christmas Room

The door to the jewelry store was locked as soon as the clock struck closing time on Christmas Eve. Jewelry ...
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Optimism, Football, and Thanksgiving Flu

Nothing I have to say right now warrants its own post, so you're getting a combo post. I'll give you ...
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When Self-Care Looks Feels Like Failing

Last night I ordered a Honey Baked Ham. And Honey Baked Ham brand smoked turkey. I have failed at Thanksgiving ...
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This is probably a bad idea.

Remember a while back when I talked about making sure I was SO VERY prepared for the Wine & Dine ...
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Just Write: I’m Just Writing

This morning I forgot to take my medicines. Well, that's not entirely true. I took one thyroid medicine. And then ...
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It Was A Good Day

Today, my family said final goodbyes to my Grannie, or Mollie as her parents named her. A longtime family friend ...
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The In Between

Right now, I'm sitting in the most wonderful place. This place may feel sad for some. It may make some ...
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Wingman

Scene: Saturday night, master bathroom. Henry's in the shower. Mom (me) is flat-ironing her hair. Henry: Where are you going? ...
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I Mean, Why Bother?

Something as simple as laundry has to be so freaking complicated, doesn't it? The first thing I always hear after ...
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It was all fine and dandy…

The morning was great. He got up, got dressed, and even brushed his teeth without my having to ask. The ...
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Mom Guilt

But mom, I want to sleep late and stay home and play with my toys. Can’t you take the summer ...
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What A Difference A Year Makes

A year ago, I woke up and (without knowing it was National Running Day) spent $19.95 to get the Couch ...
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Serious question…

Here's a very serious question: Which of these scenarios would you rather see? 1. Neil Patrick Harris playing Barney Stinson ...
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Henry Takes The Wheel

Today is Mother's Day. Obviously. Henry has been asking for a blog for a while now, and he will be ...
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Two Halves Make a Whole, Right?

I did it. I did the thing I swore I wouldn't do. I signed up for a second half marathon ...
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Emergency on the Race Course

It was about mile 6 when I really had to go. The thought of stopping my clock and going into ...
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The Key To Grace

The other day, I stopped at the mailbox to grab the mail. That's a task I dread most days. It's ...
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What Does It Mean?

I took this picture the other day, meaning to simply take a picture of the beautiful sky that was the ...
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Paralyzed

Tuesday afternoon. All day Wednesday. Work. No phone. No internet. No email. It's as if we were living in 1994, ...
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Friends From Cradle To Grave

Forever Friends. Friends Forever. I would venture to say not a whole lot of people can say they have been ...
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A Duck Says Quack… or Does It?

I originally posted this early this morning and upon FINALLY waking up (stupid time zones) my BlogBet friend sent me ...
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We Never Forget: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day 2010 – 2019

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make ...
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Hey Freddie…where’s our gift?

Jason and I were married at St. Simons Island on the coast of Georgia in September of 1998. We married ...
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When I win, I’ll chew bubblegum!

Every year, the world of golf goes absolutely ga-ga when the time finally comes for The Masters - or "the ...
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