• Dramatic Nonsense,  Just Jana,  Mental Health,  Writer

    Drowning

    Have you ever felt like you were drowning? It’s my worst fear. I would rather die in fire or from falling out of a plane that to drown. Maybe it’s because I don’t like to swim, or because I’m a Sagittarius. It’s probably because I can’t hold my breath very long and was always the first one up during Country Club Pool hold-your-breath contests. Last night I dreamed about drowning in the Country Club Pool. I’m pretty sure it’s because after a week of feeling like drowning, I was granted permission to “GO GENTLY WITH YOU.” (thank you, Ann) Work is crazy. I mean, it’s Spring and I work at…

  • Disney Running and Travel,  Just Jana,  Team RMHC

    The Dumbest, Most Amazing Thing I’ve Ever Done #GlassSlipperChallenge

    There. I said it. Running the Glass Slipper Challenge was the dumbest thing I’ve ever done. Yet it was also one of the most amazing. Twenty-ish months ago, when I decided  to lace up some running shoes and give the whole running thing a shot, I had no clue I would end up running three half marathons in one calendar year. I certainly didn’t think I would be insane enough to sign up for a 10k and a half marathon in ONE WEEKEND. That much I can promise you. Yet I did. And (spoiler alert for those who live under a rock) I did it. Last month, I wrote a…

  • Just Jana,  Team RMHC

    On Goal-Setting and A New Sense of Purpose

    Last week, I was chatting with a friend. Our quick chats are usually pretty random, but that’s what makes them fun. Sometimes they take a serious turn and wisdom explodes from one of our brains. He was talking about doing something that would leave him, hopefully, refreshed and renewed and with a new sense of purpose. He called it a challenge and said that to him it was going to be like his version of running a half marathon and he wanted to see if he could actually do it. It really made me think about how running a half marathon effects me. I’ve always been a list-maker instead of…

  • Disney Running and Travel,  Just Jana,  Team RMHC

    Letting My Competitive Side Show

    I don’t feel like I’m very competitive. I mean, I’m sure I am in many ways, but I don’t think of myself as going around being all “I have to be THE BEST or I have to WIN or I have to run as FAST as I possibly can.” Maybe I do and just don’t know it. But at any rate, I don’t feel competitive for the most part. Until it comes to fundraising. When it comes to fundraising, I long to be the best. Did you hear me? THE BEST! In less than two weeks, as you may know (unless you’ve been living under a rock or are new…

  • Just Jana,  Mental Health,  The Struggle Bus,  Writer

    When The Glass Is Half Empty

    Being an optimist stinks sometimes. No, really, it does. You see? When you’re happy and positive and the one people look for to feel better all the time (read: Me), it gets to be a heavy burden to bear, especially when you really just want to have a bad day. Right now, I just want to be grumpy. My glass is half empty. I want to stay in bed and watch trashy TV. I want there to be a pizza delivered to my house every night for a week so I don’t have to think about cooking or eating or cleaning up. Do you ever get sick of eating or…

  • Just Jana

    Two Firsts: A DNF and Cop Car Selfies

    I sat in the Blue Bird bus, made in my hometown, with my legs hitting the seat in front of me. I wondered how I’m THIS much bigger than I was when I rode nearly the same bus to and from school. I was on the “hump seat.” You know the one. The one that sits over the rear wheel and you have a built in footrest. I always loved that seat and tried to get it every day. The bus took us to the church for the start of the Tartan Trot 5k/10k. I was signed up for the 10k — ready to take on the 6.2 miles that…

  • Just Jana

    Just Write: Performance Enhancing Drugs

    It’s not a secret that I run. It’s not a secret that I have osteoarthritis that does, in fact, give me fits. I swell, I hurt, but I go on. When I started running, I had just been to the rheumatologist for the most severe swelling I’ve ever experienced. And that’s saying a LOT if you ever saw me while  I was pregnant with Charlie! When I went, I showed her my feet and ankles and she gasped! THAT is not a real good sign. She immediately prescribed me a high dose diuretic and over the next two days, TWELVE pounds was pulled off my body — of fluid! Don’t…

  • Charlie,  Just Jana,  Mental Health,  Writer

    Just Write: The Doctor’s Office

    Yesterday, I was sitting in the pediatrician’s office, waiting for a consultation with Henry’s doctor. He wasn’t with me. So I was the lone mother sans child in the well waiting room. Even though the waiting room was the “well” one, there were still people hacking and there’s technically no wall separating the “sick” from the “well” so I’m unsure how that works. Germs just know which side to stay on? Anyway, when I sat down, I realized there was a baby crying in one of the rooms. It was loud and screechy and muffled. I tried to drown it out by watch Cars on the big screen and by…

  • Dramatic Nonsense,  Just Jana

    The Anatomy of A Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Run

    pushes Garmin button. 3-2-1-run. Ugh. This is no good. Get yourself in the right headspace, Jana.  That’s better. This will be an easy 5-7 miles. Maybe I’ll do 8. Or maybe just 5. We’ll see.  Mile 1. Please let my joints loosen up. Did I remember my meds? I know I took them.  Mile 2. Did I really take my meds? Why do I feel like I forgot how to run? My legs aren’t working right. One of my legs feels longer than the other.  Mile 3.  Do I look like I’m shuffling? Because I feel like I’m shuffling.  Or maybe I’m limping. Why am I limping.  Mile 4. This…

  • Disney Running and Travel,  Just Jana,  Team RMHC

    This is probably a bad idea.

    Remember a while back when I talked about making sure I was SO VERY prepared for the Wine & Dine half marathon? Remember when I said I was going to lose 20 pounds before the race? Remember when I made ALL THOSE PLANS? Well, life happened. I could make a million excuses about why I’m not ready, but the bottom line is that I’m not ready. Physically, I’m not trained at all. Sure, I’ve run. But nothing of any length or importance. Mentally? I’m so ready I could run it tomorrow. This is probably a bad idea. In one part of my mind, I feel like it’s going to be…